Sounds like you’ve had too much internet.
Either that, or you have a fascination for human suffering. Which you might want to see a therapist about if you can afford it.
In either case, signing off and doing something you enjoy offline might be a good idea. I’d take to the mountains, but that’s just me.
Kudos for honourably backtracking and being reasonable. Mistakes are made, what matters is how they’re dealt with.