I should be studying right now, but everytime I sit to study, I can’t sit there long enough, I want food even though I am not hungry, I want to watch TV/youtube, self-pleasure… etc…
No matter what productive work I want to do, I will try to not do that and do something which gives me momentary pleasure. I want to masturbate, eat lots of food even though I am not hungry while watching TV/Youtube and I don’t seem to be able to break the cycle and it’s destroying me. How can I break the cycle and do something good for a change instead of pleasuring myself in the moment meaninglessly?
Yeah I do this to break my inertia.
“I’m not actually going to do any work, just clear my desk, then 5 minutes youtube”
“I’m not actually going to do any work, I’m just going to get my books / laptop out, then do whatever thing for 5 minutes”
… and so on …