You want to be good at it. There are people in class around you that do amazing work. Your work will be judged by your instructor and pretty harshly by yourself. Your skill is so far away from where you want it to be. You’re just trying to make an nose look like a nose and not a distorted apple core, much less have any hope of defining your own artistic style.

Creating is hard. Getting your brain and hands to create what you have envisioned is really difficult.