It feels pretty weird to me that people are almost programmed to recommend Therapy or Gym as the ultimate solutions.
Despite the fact that not all people are capable of doing both.
Further more, there is no study, as far as my knowledge go, that show any ultimate cure for depression. Matter of fact I had seen a study that suggest a very high percentage of people are drug treatment resistant (meaning that there depression would not get better with any prescribed drugs).
I had seen studies that say that training or even just daily walks can highly improve mood, but I had never heard that they fully cure depression.
I struggled with this for a while too. But ultimately, I found the meaninglessness more freeing than anything. A cold and indifferent universe makes the elegance of physics and the intricate diversity of life that much more beautiful. The fact that consciousness exists at all is a marvel.
You’re right, death is inevitable. But non-existence is the default state. We didn’t exist for billions of years in the past, and we won’t exist for billions of years in the future. Life is recreation time. We get to observe the world, have experiences, interact with other consciousness. We’ll be called back to oblivion eventually, and as far as we can tell we only get one ride. What’s the rush in getting off?
I prefer to think of life more like a game than a prison. There are cool things to do if you follow the quests, but you can also just bug off to the wilderness to appreciate the graphics. It’s totally open world. Find something cool and obsess over it, create something just for the sake of creation, help other people who are struggling.
If nothing matters anyway, it’s impossible to waste your life. The rules are made up, you can choose to do whatever you want, if you put in a little effort. Even the effort can be fulfilling, it’s not very satisfying to just get everything you want.
So yes, the cosmos are inscrutable and unfeeling, yes, death is inevitable. But so what? What’s the rush? You are not the first to feel ennui, many before you have come out the other side with an absurdist appreciation for a “purposeless” life. Rushing to the exit just seems a bit premature to me, assuming you aren’t in chronic and terminal physical pain. Who knows how your views can change in even a few years, but you’ve gotta be around to find out.