I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around? 😔I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.
but you haven’t always been in pain.
to appreciate the good times you have to have gone through the worst times.
believe me, this too shall pass. and you will be stronger and better off for it.
there is no easy way out. just know that complete strangers online have gone through what you are going through, and have your back (as evident in the comments).
and you too, will persevere. and come out on top.
hugs from an internet stranger 👥
I guess not always yeah. But it’s always lingering and every time it gets “better” it kinda plummets again. But I know this will pass and better things will come. It feels nice to talk to everyone on here 🩷