Bullied and constantly abused, breaking away finally. Nothing’s happening now and I won’t let it, but I’m badly hurt by these people who don’t even feel guilty or care because they say I’m disgusting.
I’m going to keep them out of sight, out of mind, but it’s easier said than done.
I’ve been abused (physically and mentally) by my parents and bullied at school. I can obviously only talk about myself, but maybe my experience helps you.
Understanding, that those people will never care or feel guilt, is hard. Especially when you were abused as a child and hoped for a happy end. Actively trying to get over it also didn’t work very well for me. For me the best thing to do was focus on other things: find friends, find hobbies, do whatever you always wanted to do (I started wearing clothes I was forbidden to wear and practicing hobbies that were ridiculed).
Just fill your life with things you like and the bullies and abusers will become smaller and smaller.
Therapy is a good start to help you with this and question yourself, who you are and who you want to be.