Seriously, human existence is a collective learning experience, Stagnation started rubbing its hands with perverse delight the instant we forewent vulnerability and openness for excesive individualism.

Edit: I still don’t know how to adequately open up to someone else, after a decade of trying to figure it out. After being raised to be a soulless performance machine and being surrounded by people who cave in to the grindset, I don’t know what it means to be open and vulnerable with another person.

And it sucks so much long-term, I can feel it as though I’m being held back several grades, like I’m completely missing the point of my own lived experience and have no idea what to do with it, because I don’t have the framework of a big picture atop which to analyse things, and I think that framework would be having enough perspectives which aren’t my own in my life.

I’ve finally understood what Alan Watts said, that we can’t know ourselves unless we have other people around to help us see who we aren’t. It’s because we know too well who we are, but not knowing who we aren’t, that’s like trying to understand fire without knowing ice.

There is a difference between someone asking to be honest during a conversation and saying they are (‘brutally’) honest to deflect when called out for being an asshole.

In my genuine honest opinion because I always keep it real, and I do this only so I live my life knowing that I never lie: you look like you suck the shit out of butts for a living.